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moths to a flame by fenrir3rd, literature

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moths to a flame

The night is cold and I wander the dark streets, alone, absorbed in thought. Out of the corner of my eye I catch a flicker in a window, it breaks me away from my thoughts and draws my attention. As I near the window I see the most beautiful thing I've ever seen in my short life, dancing languidly, bending, swaying swirling, twirling with an exuberance that seems at once to be unnatural yet innate. I can't take my eyes off the dancer, my previous thoughts forgotten as my imagination gets swept up in the motion. A deep longing grows in me to be dancing too. I press my face against the smooth chilled glass of the window my eyes seeing nothing el

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MILESTONES - 5.19.2003 I feel empty, again. Life has passed me by While I, in my daydream of nothing, Stopped the movement of time In a split second. My heart in a ziplock bag Resting in my hip pocket I watched the world spin away In a matter of minutes. I never stopped living But I\'m afraid to face the World I have cursed, the people I have hurt and the places I can no longer go As well as the reflections I see When I pass by the tall buildings downtown, Mirroring glass walls. I wake up to the same dream every morning I\'m falling again. I\'ve fallen this time. My thoughts played games While

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Perchance to Dream by fenrir3rd, literature

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Perchance to Dream

I have always been a dreamer, I\'ve always known I was. Maybe I forgot this was a dream, and when the time came to wake up all I wanted to do was to go back to sleep and hope that the dream would continue. But now everytime I close my eyes I find nothing but nightmares. Now all I want to do is to forget this dream, to stop dreaming all together, but I can\'t. Can\'t wake up anymore. I\'m stuck in the nightmare this dream has become. No dawn to break this spell, as I struggle to free myself from this dream. Like dreaming of falling, but without waking up, and so I hit the ground only to realize I\'m still falling.

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About fenrir3rd

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Current Residence: Nederland, Colorado
deviantWEAR sizing preference: S-M
Favourite genre of music: anything with violins
Favourite style of art: The pretty kind...
Operating System: Windows 7
MP3 player of choice: Winamp3
Shell of choice: This one I have made for myself...
Wallpaper of choice: Random pictures
Skin of choice: extra crispy
Favourite cartoon character: GIR
Personal Quote: Did everything taste purple for a second?

Favourite Visual Artist

Yoshitaka Amano

Favourite Movies

Gattaca

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Blue October

Favourite Writers

Terry Pratchett

Favourite Games

Final Fantasy XI

Favourite Gaming Platform

Super Nintendo

Tools of the Trade

insanity, depression...

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Nov 25, 2010

I love you...

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Yes, you. You reading this right now. You. I have spent the last two days looking through my deviantArt journal. My life has changed tremendously, which to anyone who is familiar with my older journal entries, can almost certainly be considered a good thing. I was partially focusing on how my life is different now, but more than that I was enamored by the comments people left me. I know I was grateful at the time, and I hope everyone knows how much their support and compassion meant to me. But just in case (and WAAAY too late.) I want to be clear. To all of you, most of whom I don't get to speak to anymore... You mean the world to me. I

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Nov 23, 2010

Insomnia...

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It's interesting that I can be exhausted, yet after falling asleep for 20 minutes while watching tv I am unable to sleep for the rest of the night. It's also interesting that I can have the most comfortable bed in the world (and good lord was it expensive.) But it doesn't help if I can't turn my brain off. I dislike affixing labels to myself. It fosters a feeling of pretension that irks me. But I still like to think of myself as possessing certain characteristics. I think, therefore I am. I write, therefore I am depressed. I can't sleep, therefore I will have a banger headache and really oily skin tomorrow. Last night my thoughts were all a

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Oct 2, 2009

I'm telling...

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The child says this when he is scared... When things are out of control and he doesn't know what else to do... he seeks a higher power... he asks for help... or he gives recrimination. I never said this much... not as a threat, not as an intent, I never sought help much either... I have a clear memory, I don't know how old I was... Couldn't have been more than Five years old, and my step-sister took great pleasure in tormenting me. She asked me to hold up my middle finger... I was five, I didn't know the bird from Big Bird... Naturally as soon as I do so she is running down stairs to tell my dad and I am punished... I have been reading End

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ladyr

Dec 5, 2013

Do you ever get on anymore Fen?

bndlda

Nov 25, 2010

Happy Thanksgiving good sir.

Nov 25, 2010

And a Happy Thanksgiving to you as well.

(Watch out for Guinness and skateboards though.)

Feb 5, 2008

Well then I guess I'm not as oblivious as I thought. You're not too far from Ames (fae) either. How funny.

How do you like it here?

Feb 1, 2008

Wow. I never realized you live in CO too...

Feb 1, 2008

LOL. Yeah, I figured he might want to be a little older before he reads it.

I go into greater detail in my blogs why I called him a parasite when he was a littler. It sounds terrible- it's almost endearing at this point.

Thanks for the comment